Life simply needs witnesses.

This past weekend members of my tribe surprised me with the greatest gift of all, their presence. It was a celebration of my rebirth, as I cannot think of a better way to describe it. I was humbled and honored, as I always am by these extraordinary women. 

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There was something about the air that evening that just felt like breath. New life. We have all gone through major transitions this year and I felt as though we all sat back and were awed by them. Storytelling is an art, as is listening. To be among women who could do both, is powerful. It was also interesting to hear one another’s shared experience and perspective of our own story. How they felt. What they knew or didn’t know. We all seemed to want to understand and yet we knew none of us could walk in one another’s shoes, just beside, holding hands. 

Life simply needs witnesses. Whether we are reflecting on our own or among loving friends, all of us just want to be seen, heard, and understood. The art of showing up, is just that, an art. It is crafted and done in our own way. We each leave our own imprint on one another. The way in which we show up for one another varies and changes, but it always contains impact. Purpose. Meaning. Love.

This year has been one that has really challenged me to access what I need, truly need. In my heart. My mind. My body. And, especially my soul. What I have come to realize is that I need what was gifted to me this weekend. Love. Witnesses. To use my voice. To speak my truth. To allow love into my life. To allow myself to be seen, even if I am not what I like to think of as the best version of myself. To be open. To love back, unconditionally. To see my soul sisters, these powerhouse supersheroes, that emulate the purpose of life. 

I am profoundly grateful to know these women. They have changed my life and my capacity to live. I am stronger because of them. I can hold more because of them. I can be seen because of them. I can love and be loved, because they taught me how. They witness and hold in the most graceful and powerful way. Pure light. Laughter. Joy. Depth. Compassion. The utmost freedom to be oneself is all anyone can hope for. They teach me that I am okay and will always be okay. 

Story tell. Say the things that often go unsaid. Speak your truth. Show up for the ones you love, and tell them just how much they mean to you. Share. Allow all the light in, even to the darkest places. Pour all of the gold into the cracks. It’s all an art, life, and living it. 

Let’s rise,

ah

Finding moments of peace among the pieces...

In the rush of life lately I have forgotten what peacefulness feels like. This morning I felt called to notice things that brought a sense of peace to my body. On our morning walk I noticed:

Someones porch, slightly shaded, adorned with hanging plants and a cozy looking bench. I could imagine myself reading up there. 

The quiet of the coffee shop after the morning hustle.

The coolness of the tree covered bike path, the breeze, gentle, as we walked.

The freshness of my iced tea. Crimson berry; I am convinced it has healing properties. No, it does.

Watching my daughters meander down the bike path noticing every bird, stick, rock, and human walking by. They are the kids who stare at you, it’s okay, it is a look of wonder. One I am in awe of every day.

The gentleness of the older man, slowly strolling along the curb saying, “good morning”, in a raspy, worn voice.

The butterfly that stopped to join us on our walk, perching on top of the stroller, perhaps giving her wings a rest for a moment. Don’t we all need to give our wings a rest for a moment? 

The innocent giggle of glee from my daughter as she settled into the swing.

The softness of my daughters hand as she climbed out of the stroller. The trust. The knowing. The familiarity. 

The calm across the pond, still water. As if today, we have all called for stillness. Haven’t we?

The youth of the camp counselors supervising kids on the playground. It wasn’t long ago, I was one of them.

Two older women sitting on rocks at the waters edge deep in discussion. Connected, perhaps through decades. I can often see my future as well as my past wherever I am. It brings more peace now than it used to.

“Sometimes we must slow down the pace of our soul.” -ah

“Sometimes we must slow down the pace of our soul.” -ah

I am not sure why any of these things feel peaceful to me, but they do. They brought calm to my body and allowed me to take a breath. To slow down, if only for a moment. Sometimes all we need is a moment to catch up to ourselves. To become aware of what we have just gone through and to know that it is okay to take a pause. Take a beat. I needed to take a beat this morning. I likely need to take a few more. It is a practice. Peacefulness is a practice. I am working on it. 

What feels like peace within your body? Brings peace to your spirit?

Be gentle.

Let’s rise,

ah